Five Months Later. . . . . . .

Let's catch up why don't we?

Hi, I'm Summer and a lot has happened since I last blogged, "A Balancing Act." In March, I was just getting out of a rocky relationship, I was working at the YMCA, keeping up with going to the gym and daily instagramming.

Things were on track. Until they weren't on track.

What happened?

Fast forward to May, I lost the job, I lost my membership to the gym, I stopped instagramming and from there it felt like a downward tumble. All of a sudden, I wasn't taking care of my room because I threw clothes wherever, I started smoking quite a bit of cigarettes, and I would lay around the house all day, go out when it was night, and repeat. 

To be 100% real, I blamed everything around me for how I was acting even with a few realizations I made during the time about myself still didn't stop me from wanting to give up. It was a major pity party to the point of wanting to run away. I started a notebook around the fact I was going away to live in a van (don't hate because living on the road is actually a ton of fun) but what's not fun is when you are only avoiding your reality with no money to go with you.

What helped me out of this?

First and foremost, the biggest person helping me out of this is my dad. A huge thank you for everything he does for me, even when I told him I'm off to live in the van, he supported me even if he didn't want me to go. On the flip side, one late July day he saw a Facebook post for a job that having a hiring event.

Let me tell you, I threw my own little hissy fit in the my head. My thoughts raced and punched at each other, stirring up a lot of unwanted emotions. "Why do I have to go to this?" "Should I go to this?" "Why would I go?" "I don't want to go to this." "I should go to this, even if it doesn't work out." "I'll hate this job." "This is so stupid." "Ugh." "No." "Yes, Summer you can go and do this." "Even if it doesn't work out, maybe you won't get hired." "Yea, go, because it probably won't work out anyway." "I need a job, I guess." and honestly, the list goes on and on.

I threw on my American Eagle jeans, Birkenstocks, and a black top and remained cool on the outside. I had my dad drive me to make sure I actually got there and felt the support. Within an hour of interviews and touring, I came out with a smile on my face because I was HIRED! The kicker is, I actually really thought it was going to be good for me, I enjoyed being there a lot.

So where am I now?

That one day changed everything for me, That one day made me realize that I get to create my reality. Those mental blockers I felt for the past few months are out the window. Living on the road is in my future, it'll happen but when it does it's going to be done with honest views. 

During the same week at being hired onto the team, I was offered an opportunity to help shaketend at our local Herbalife shake bar. I've been familiar with the products for a few years now and coming out of not eating healthy or working out, this was right up my alley to a point of steady healing. 

How is everything?
I am feeling truly amazing, here's why: I've been working for three weeks = three paychecks and I'm relearning how I want to budget and save money. (Bonus points: I haven't been late or missed a shift) Crush Nutrition = active in the community, around a healthy lifestyle three times a week. I've lost 10 pounds and haven't derived from my new goal of consistency! I cleaned my entire room, reorganized it and no longer throw clothes wherever I want to.

Most importantly, I am back on one of my greatest loves: blogging and instagramming. There's a beauty for me sharing all of this with you and I'm more than excited for where the words take us within the next few weeks.

What to expect from the blog and Instagram?

We will forever be on a journey that's always evolving. Just like before, I'm here posting about Embracing that Lifestyle, your life and everything that comes with it. It's going to be a lot of fun going into all the nitty gritty details about what this means. For now, the basic of it is you're in charge of your life and your reality. It's customizable to you and the best part of life is taking the responsibility and recognition: fully committing and EMBRACING yourself and your life. 

I'm going to keep embracing the things that make me: ME and together we are going to make the world a happier place.